These last few months have not always been easy. Though I have felt God’s presence through it all. During those times where I felt bold and strong; I felt Him there. During those times where I broke down, with tears that fell from deep within; I felt Him there. The only way that I survived these last few months mentally, emotionally, physically, spiritually is that God was always there. He was there on my good and strong days, days where I felt so much peace that despite my hurt, I didn’t question His reasons. He was there also though on my dark days. Ones where I broke down in tears, asking God why, as I sobbed uncontrollably. It was as though He held me through my hurt and allowed me to feel what I needed to. I have gone through ups and downs of both of these versions of myself. The complete confidence in God and the God, I love you but why?! Through it all, the highs and lows; I have felt His presence there. God is not just our strength when we can be bold in our faith in Him, but He is our strength even as our hearts ache. As I age there is one thing I have learned most certainly, that God is present through all we endure in life. The question is not whether He is, but whether despite our low moments, we are still acknowledging that He is there. He is waiting to lift us up again, if we let Him. Though these last few months have not been what I would choose; I choose to trust Him despite it. For God’s presence is felt with me always and if He is always with me; friend, it is through His strength that I will endure. It is in Him that I am okay. For He is God and He lovingly walks with me through it all. He walks with us all, through it all. We only need to but remember.

Erin Fitts-Brower 

Psalm 73:26 NIV

My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.